A Lianster Life

- I Found A Job!! ^_^ -

2005-03-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

Harlow all.. its been a long time since i last update.. so busy.. well jus 2 update my 2 buddys, i found a job le.. it's a mobile retail.. starting work on 10th March.. hubby oso working in the same company.. hehe, we went for interview today.. 1st interview of the day & we got the job.. lucky us~ guess hubby will be posted to another outlet.. i don't tink we will get to work in the same location.. =/

After starting work, i won't haf time for my buddys le.. so sad.. i miss them~ Ms Stacy & Ms Carroll!! =..( free can drop by and visit me ok.. will let u all noe my location cos i not very sure too.. but most prob in toa payoh again..

GUCCI is a big ger now ^^v.. she is getting heavier le.. hai no more tt cute little puppy.. of cos she is still as cute as b4 but seeing her everyday, i can sense tt she have grown slightly bigger in size.. i guess she miss those 2 ladies too.. hee..

How are u buddys? hope u all are doing fine.. Ms Stacy is diagnosed wif duno wad illness.. still need to go for blood test.. wad happen 2 u my dear ger?? & Ms Carroll, i didn't forget u ok!!! u r still on my mind.. i miss u gals.. miss e time we crapped & smoke together.. free msg or cal me la k..

Anyway wish me gd luck in this job~! hope everyting go fine for me & hubby.. *prayz*

- Lucky Day -

2005-03-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

Today sibei heng.. picked up $50 at hubby's hse downstairs when i was leaving in the nite.. lucky he suggested tat he wanted to eat the mashed potato from 7-11.. u noe the one RP sells? the maggi wan.. haha.. his fav food is potato.. i saw a blue note & i shouted to hubby..

Me: $50!!! There!!
Hubby: [looking at me sibei stunt..]
Me: Quick!! $50 leh!!
Hubby: [walked towards the note..] smiles.. hehe.. clever ger ah..

I tel u, in my whole life, i nv so heng picked up $50 before! this is the damn 1st time man!! i kept thinking to myself, why so heng? den i recalled back.. tat day i rip the "Da-Bei-Zhou" the buddhist song which is a prayer for hubby's mum.. today in the noon, hubby played the song.. must be tat song liao! wah piang, lao tian ye ye finally *you yen*.. finally drop something gif me.. although not a lot oso gd la.. tao ji bai ma.. lolx.. wonder who is tat suey jiao who dropped! or bi ah! lao tian ye ye got eyes drop gif me! u huo gai! haha..

Changed hubby's blog this afternoon.. go check it out.. damn cute.. Carroll & Stacy sure love it man! lolx.. time to change mine too.. but i'm so so so LAZY!!i'm a perfectionist.. i wan everyting to be so so nice.. but i'm so so lazy.. asking myself when to start.. motivation where r u?? mus be sleeping wif me oso.. high 5 hor!

Hubby going to start work soon.. sadz.. wanted to go sch tmr.. but hubby say he going to start work le.. so pei him loh.. haix.. i will be so so so bored when he starts working.. motivation sleeping, loneliness going to arrive.. humph!!!

TO CARROLL & STACY: BETTER KNOW WAD 2 DO HOR!! ACCOMPANIANCE FROM U 2! ^_^

Roll to bed.... rolling rolling rolling.. tata.. ^_-

- Horrible Morning.. Sweet @ Nite -

2005-03-01T02:50:00.000+08:00

I had the most horrible morning of all.. i teared when i saw hw hubby treated GUCCI.. poor little fella.. she was just whining.. maybe becos she's hungry.. hubby wasn't in a gd mood.. haix.. unlucky for her.. everyting is fine now..

TO MR. MELVIN: Pls dun ever treat GUCCI lidat again.. since it pains u too, y treat her lidat..

I did a good deed today.. i helped my sis make her blog.. in jus half an hr.. proud of myself.. hehe.. can drop by to see her's.. she haven added any entry.. be patient.. but she chose a sweet template.. so unlikely of her.. darn.. is she turning more feminine?? well.. god knows..

Turning in soon.. haven seen my best buddys for 1 wk.. miss them alot.. how r u guys.. hang on there.. i will be popping by soon.. cheers.. ^_^

- SianzzZ -

2005-02-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

Woke up @ 3plus in the noon.. dun haf any plans for today.. today haf to go my big aunt hse for dinner.. it will be the last day of our CNY celebration there.. i came back earli, i was totally bored there.. we ate, crapped & gambled.. i didn't gamble.. it's time to save.. went off earlier then...

Ytd went out wif my little sis to Causeway Point.. saw UK funfair there.. AWESOME!! they had different rides from the other time i visited it @ Marina.. many many rides.. those who enjoy the thrills should make ur way there.. it's rather ex too.. had dinner @ Pizza Hut wif her.. went shopping for her water bottle.. bought something for hubby.. i bought some things too, body care & stuff.. left @ 10plus in the nite..

Back to today.. i'm now @ home blogging.. didn't meet hubby today.. tmr is mon.. wondering to return 2 sch.. i'm so sick wif tat OH-SO CALLED RP... today will be my last day of the boring wk.. hopefully some sparkles will come next wk..

moodless... DEaD!! can't speak up wads on my mind.. so many things are bothering me... kan pua pek-cek!! pua turtle!!! here i go again.. bye...

Amelia wans a blog.. guess i will be doing for her the layout..

- Speechless -

2005-02-24T01:24:00.000+08:00

Ytd Carroll & Stacy came to my hse after their UT.. i didn't turn up for school.. so they call me n disturb me.. especially tat Ms Stacy.. how dare u!! hehe.. j/k la.. we talked, smoked, ate pizza and do some stupid stuff.. my room was like their "Girlie-Room".. made nails & hair.. lolx.. fun ah..

I didn't turn up for school today too.. bet Carroll didnt too.. poor Stacy.. i'm so sorrie my dear gal.. tmr i tink i oso not going.. dun feel like going school anymore.. i wanna QUIT!! hate school life! hate to study!!

I'm totally put-off today! jus not my day.. no mood.. speechless.. dead.. lethagic.. sleepy.. i slept so long today.. it's not even enough! my life is so tiring!! wad else can i say? i'm jus fucking bored of amanda! she's so boring! she got no life.. no goal.. & wad's more? a souless body.. everyting i do is oways not successful.. one after another, an obstacle comes by.. FOR WAD FUCK MAN!!!!

- i hate to be me.. i hate everyting!!! -

- (-_____-") -

2005-02-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

Went to school today.. but zhao @ 10am plus.. i sycho Carroll along.. hehe.. we played scissors, paper, stone for 1 round.. she won me.. but i wanted to win, so i said 3 rounds.. in e end i won.. lolx.. & u noe wad?? Ms Stacy pon school today.. how nice of her!! leave us alone without telling us! damn kiang! guess she learnt the moves yea? ahahaha...

The both of us went to my hubby's hse.. played wif GUCCI.. Carroll left @ 1plus i tink.. she went to meet up with her MONKEY FREN.. she si-lian.. so ke lian.. haix, her bf oso cb wan la.. duno wad he see in tat fat ger!

Didn't do much today.. stayed in hubby hse the whole day.. he gambled Tai-Sai wif his sister.. after playing a few rounds of Tai-Sai they switched to Blackjack.. she won $36 @ first.. after dinner, they continued and she lost all her money plus additional $10 whom she borrowed from hubby.. wahahaha.. i was cursing her tat she would lose all her money in front of her face.. who cares? so wad if she won? her money oso she take from him! and the worst thing she said is.. "buy ciggarette for me tmr".. sibei kiang! I GIF HER A BIG CHOP ON HER FOREHEAD & SALUTE HER!!

Left his hse @ 10plus.. hubby going 2 gamble wif his frenz.. wish him gd luck~

Well the truth was out, "X" admitted.. not willingly, but i said it out.. i couldn't tolerate.. "X" smiled back to me.. it said it has it's reason for not telling me.. it was because it was afraid tat i would pour cold water on it.. i wasn't angry anymore.. jus felt so cheated! but well, "X" said it would tel me next time.. i hope "X" mark up it's words..

Done for today.. thinking to go sch tmr anot.. sianz.. -___-"

- Moodless -

2005-02-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

Wonder why i'm blogging again.. slept till 5 plus today.. haf a very bad tummy ache! wonder if it's aunty betty's food!! haf been visiting my toilet for 6 times?! wth!! bet my toilet bowl is cursing & swearing at me..

Went 2 aunty betty's hse for gathering on Sat.. was boring though.. my dear cousin janine, left earlier.. thanks to her boasting mother.. she don't mean wad she said man! wad is the meaning of "u guys can leave anytime u wan, jus ring me & i'll pick u up if i'm not aslp.." when she came at 11:45pm 2 pick them up.. wow! wad a great eng idiom to learn tat doesn't make sense! she stated every damn ting but didn't work to it.. great!

My brain is thinking of tt little fella.. wonder wad she's doin now.. shd be slping..

i feel so moodless.. wanna scream out loud but i cant.. darn! i hate this feeling! tmr haf to go back sch.. O'great.. facing tat greenish environment again! have been pon-ing for 1 wk.. wonder my 2 buddys will go anot.. made a call to Ms Roll jus now, she said she's going.. somehow, i don't feel confident wif tat answer.. Ms Stacy? she's out of reach.. recently tat woman haf set up Multiple.. uploaded pictures of her & frenz.. clever ain't she.. tot she didnt wan a blog? wonder will she update her journal...

No jokes for u guys today.. my language sounds so formal yea? no verbal abuse & swearing.. hope i recover back to my normal self.. i can't stand this quiet me.. going back to my dead mode..

- Depressed / Cheated -

2005-02-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Feel so depressed today..
Felt so cheated..
Why must i live in ignorance?
Izzit reali blissed?
I wan to voice out, but i'm afraid..
Is history goin to repeat itself?
I knew it from 10:38pm on 19th Feb' 05..
All lies!!
Why must i come to know all these?
Why must it pretend that nth happened?
I'm no longer tat ignorant fella who can jus forget everything that happened..
I feel so useless, like a rat!
I hope the truth will arrive to me willingly..
I hate to keep mum when the truth is jus there!

- Dead -

- Shopping -

2005-02-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

Went to PS wif hubby today.. he told me tat today maybe not going anywhere.. but was surprised tat he said he wanted to go PS.. somemore tat place so boring wan.. but he went there for a purpose.. he brought me to choose a couple ring.. we have been wearing our's for years.. its time to change.. lolx..

Went to eat @ MOS burger while waiting.. den went to arcade play games.. after the ring was done, we went to Taka.. hubby got himself a phone.. cos of his bloody sister! lost her phone den take his phone den now he have to get one for himself! FUCKED UP! not fair man!! won a box of "tai sai" when i took the lucky dip @ M1.. a game called BIG-small.. upload the photo of it.. damn gei yan.. can open gambling den liao.. lolx..

Was happi the whole day.. until i reached home! got pissed off by someone! I'M SO ANNOYED WIF TAT PERSON!!! PLEASE LA! U R OLD ENUFF TO KNOW HOW TO CONTROL UR MONEY LA!!! KNN!!! SHALL NOT ADD ON!!

-GONE TO SLP!!-

- 我的 SIAO 还在... 我随时 STAND BY -

2005-02-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

before continuing reading, in order to read the chinese words, pls set ur view at UNICODE (UTF-8)

K Box Day.. (my title of the day is taken from the song 孤单北半球..) do u all get the other meaning?? LOLL!!!

Didn't go school today.. haven been to sch this whole week.. thurs & fri oso no nid go sch cos open hse.. so we have 2 weeks off for ourselves.. haha.. Stacy woke me up @ 12 noon.. but i went back to slp again.. woke up at around 12:20pm when hubby call.. went to bath den go meet him.. called Carroll & Stacy to comfirm meet where..

Me & hubby went to taka 1st.. went to grab our lunch, den went to see the dog clothes.. bought a pink wan.. hehe.. its a dress.. cost $19.90!! a bit ex right.. pasamalam pple sell @ $5 oso got.. puppy clothes so little cloth cost so much.. knn! tai lang pang he ah! if i clever i oso sew one myself ah.. buy a few meters of cloth can make so many.. can let GUCCI wear for duno how many months.. somemore can be model, go n dog walk ah! duno Carroll will make anot.. *hint hint* lolx.. jus joking..

Met both of them @ City Hall den walk over to Suntec for our K Box session.. sang from 2 or 3plus till 7:30pm.. took some photos & video clips too.. too bad i duno hw to upload the video clip but i will go n figure out.. captured Carroll's siao cha bor spirit.. she dance like, woah~ i tell u man! u cant believe it's her.. like hiao cha bor.. i can't describe but jus picture tat ger shaking & dancing like nobody's business.. damn funi..haha ^_^.. & i can't believe the songs she sang loh! BAD BOY, ALAMAK (the pi li pa la wan), 姐姐妹妹站起来! piang eh! damn ba lia leh the songs.. but i like her singing tat pi li pa la song.. she used tat low voice, damn nice.. as for Stacy? like eh gao lidat.. so paiseh keep on dowan to sing.. got la she got sing la... sing like the BIGGEST ANT on earth loh.. duno sing for who to hear.. kaox.. Stacy, u will pai seh wan meh.. can purr like cat cannot sing.. hubby & me were oso singing songs.. had fun today la.. laughters, chatting & photos kept us alive =)

Carroll wanted to leave cos she headache.. den Stacy gotta meet MR. KEN = "BA WANG" so all of us left together.. went back to hubby hse there.. ate @ Mac's den went back his hse.. played wif GUCCI & let her try on her new pinky dress.. it's too big for her.. wait for her bigger den let her wear la..

Tat's all for today.. so when are we meeting up ladies?? o.O?? i've upload some new photos.. can take a look.. stop blogging le.. ciaoZ...

- A Recap of Valentine's Day -

2005-02-15T10:07:00.000+08:00

Didn't go sch on mon.. went over to hubby hse to celebrate Valentine's Day.. we went to Seletar West Farm 1 to see gou gou.. saw many dogs there.. all very adorable.. we were looking for a Shih Tzu.. there were about 6 or 7 of them.. i was attracted to a pair of sisters who were in the same cage.. hubby ask me to decide which one to take.. i chose the dumber wan.. cos she v cute like gong gong wan.. the uncle said she oways lose to the other female.. lolx..

We asked the uncle to get her washed up.. while waiting we looked at the rest of the baby Shih Tzu(s).. we spotted another female wan.. she oso very cute.. but she's slightly smaller than the previous wan.. hubby said this fella oso v cute.. well, i agreed to it too.. after deciding for 5min.. i decided to take this fella~ told the uncle tat i wanted to change.. & now she's mine.. hehe.. there was the poor little fella oso of the same breed, who was seriously injured on her both eyes.. she couldn't c properly.. reali v poor ting.. she got injured while playing with all her bro(s) & sis(s).. poor little fella.. she's the smallest size of all! she's v shy, i walked towards her cage to take a look @ her.. but she back away.. hide @ a corner.. hope she get cured soon..

Hubby gave me this shih tzu as a Valentine's gift.. thank u thank u... i think this is the most expensive gift i ever got in my entire life.. thank u hubby.. i reali like this fella alot..

Went to meet Carroll near her hse area cos she wanted 2 c our new *fren*.. hehe.. guessed she likes her too.. i mean this fella is reali damn small.. who won't find her adorable? hopefully she stays in this size longer.. if not all will tao yan her liao.. Carroll's sis, Chris came along too.. it was my 1st time seeing her.. look alike wif Carroll.. jus tat she's a.. hmmm, how should i put it? a ger who is more boyish? u noe la huh.. no offence Chris~

Chris is afraid of dogs so she kept a distance from the little fella.. but she petted her & said this is her closest distance wif dogs.. heh~ try harder man.. she won't hurt u lah.. took a few photos of the little fella.. will upload in my photo section.. go & take a look if u r curious..

But i warn u.. she may be cute, but she's dangerous (as time goes by lah)... wahahahah.. chatted wif both C&C wif hubby & the little fella.. well of cos she don't understand a single thing but she just act as if she is damn cute, walking around the stone chair... how mean of me.. haha..

Went back to hubby's hse & let the fella rest in her new cage.. i can't bring this fella home.. my mum hate dogs.. but wad's e diff? i meet hubby almost everyday.. so put in his hse oso same.. at least his mum & sister will oso look after this fella.. i gave her a name.. damn vogue wan.. *GUCCI* hehe.. i love GUCCI perfumes, so i decided to call her tat.. she so cute liao, call her GUCCI la-gi cute.. haha.. like a soft toy lidat..

Carroll i tel u, we both are lucky man! as soon as the fella went to her new cage, she urinated & motion.. damn heng man!! good ger eh.. hahaz.. took some video clips of her too... she was tired after playing the whole day.. the mst cute is, she climb up to hubby's bed & slept in a corner.. damn gei-siao wan! cheater dog! hehe... but cute lah.. looking at the way she bluff her way tru, jus makes us laugh~ hubby's sister oso like her.. HENG AH!

K la enuff of her.. jus wanna thank bebe for the wonderful gift.. muackzZz.. i shall stop too.. today's entry i so damn SHORT man.. lolx.. bye all.. ^_^v

- Chinese New Year -

2005-02-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT! i wrote so much and blogger did not do a good job! nth came out.. i'm re-writing now! fuck facE!!

Had a long CNY celebration.. was visiting & visiting till fri.. my ang bao money is decreasing.. KNN! LPG! LPG = lao pok gai! dunoe why this yr so little.. =/ sianz..

My parents invited my relatives on sat.. was so tired.. had to prepare food & drinks.. clean up, pour out all the goodies & sweets.. feel like a Singaporean Maid.. i invited Carroll, Stacy & Stf over to my place.. but Stacy didnt come.. he mother oso open hse.. !#%$^#@ why cant she do on another daY? Stacy reali missed out all the fun!! had a great laugh wif my lao bei.. guessed Carroll BTH oso.. haha.. too much to say la.. so i won't add on..

Lost a lot in gambling this year... suey jiao! but i won hubby this year! wahahaha.. 1st time man! i feel so proud of myself.. every year i sure lose to him wan.. lose until teng kor! but this year diff.. wahahaha.. remarkable man~!!

Today is our anniversary.. 13th Feb '05! happi anni hubby~ tmr is Valentine's Day.. got him something too.. shh.. won't tel u all.. it's a secret.. if not he will know liao.. won't be going sch tmr.. will be going to c gou gou wif hubby... see u guys on tues then.. where's Miss Stacy? i miss her... & her laughters..

Shall end here.. tired.. Where's Mr Melvin? i miss him too.. very very much!! o.O??

- Reunion Dinner -

2005-02-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

Woke up @ 4pm den went over to my "lao eh hse" = ah ma's hse.. the dinner was splendid!! at least i'm spared from PORK today.. hehe thanks ah~

I was so happi becos aunty serene haf the vcd "Bo-Li-Xie".. she's gonna lend me.. but haf to wait for aunty betty to finish 1st.. was watching 2 CDs in ah gong's room.. watched wif stella and some of my aunties.. had a great time today..

Played cards too.. today is jus not my luck~ Daddy topped me up many times.. but still i lost.. haix.. must learn my aunties.. WEAR RED PANTY~!! haha.. nvm la oso not my money.. haha.. tmr will be my money liao.. so pls.. *Lao tian ye ye, qing bao you wo hor!*

Went down to the playground to check wad those small kids were playing.. catching as usual.. so happi to c all of them... reminds me of the time when i was young.. we were crapping all the way.. laughing non stop~ i cant say all cos there are too many..

Left @ 1am.. tmr gotta wake up earli to bai nian.. will be busy this month.. to all those aunties & uncles giving me hong bao tmr: "PLEASE BE AS GENEROUS AS U CAN, I DON'T MIND TAKING MORE OR GIVING U MORE ORANGES~!!" lol..

Happy new year everyone.. to all my frenz & my Hubby, may *Cai shen ye find u all ah..* (remember open all ur drawers or cupboards to let cai shen ye ye in hor!!)

I shall stop here.. going to bath & den call hubby.. GONG XI FA CAI everyone~!! ^_^

- Holidayz -

2005-02-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

Hi all..

Woah haven been blogging for a long time.. i will start wif cursing 1st.. why must they clean the bloody hse once in a year.. the dusts are getting me crazy.. can u imagine i have 2 tissue paper stuck in my nostril whereva i go.. hell to those dustS! knn i feel its worst than goin to a rubbish bin.. at least rubbish bin they stink for a REASON, but hello, dust dun stink! they are jus so irritating!!

Okay 2nd cursing! where the hell did Carroll roll to?! she haven been coming to sch for the last 2 days.. even last meeting oso dowan to c me meh.. so sad! if u are Carroll's cousin or sister reading now, pls kindly pull her ears and say they are from me! that's wad u get for leaving both Stacy & me in sch! hmph!

Have been doin last cleaning up for CNY.. cant stand it.. will be buying my braS & panties plus my pyjamas on mon.. forgotten abt them.. will be draggin hubby along cos he haven bought his jeans yet.. lazy bum, jus like roller lolx.. touched up my hair on friday.. don't reali like the colour.. but hell to it la! maybe will change after new year.. and the most dulan thing is tat bitch coloured her hair to my fav colour! RED!!! somemore make bright red striks.. lucky this yr i dye brown if not like twin sisters! allah.. pls help...

Today is Sunday.. next wk i will b having one week holiday.. will be goin back to sch on 14th~ not bad ah.. they give us one week holiday to enjoy.. but u noe wad? i feel so unfortunate or SUEY! tat bloody PORK BITCH is taking leave too! and the days are the same as my sch holidays! wad the hell man! OMG! i tink i beta go n pray b4 new year.. in case pple mistaken me as her! she copy my pendant & anklet! she made white gold version for hers! she wears the same design as me! i asked her why is she doing these? she says they r cute! wad a lame answer! i wear a bell she oso put bell! wTH! now she colours her hair red! wad is she trying to prove man! G2H lah!

I'm not trying to b bias but do i haf a choice? BITCH, pls get a life of ur own.. stop leaving in the shadows of others.. u r not young anymore!! stop acting COOL or even jap! yah one more sickening thing to add on.. she told me that she likes to b jap jap! cos cute! everyting so cute! go n be cartoon la! u like PORK so much rite?! go n be porky pig's wife lah! knn! ksl!!

- gone to wash my new yr clothes -

- Jesus Day :: Touched By God -

2005-02-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

Supposed to attend UT 3 today.. but turn out, i woke up late..! WTH! i was taking mrt wif my mum till i reached Braddell, Carroll called me..

Her: Manda wher r u now?
Me: I'm at Braddell..
Her: Huh? u onli at Braddell ar? (the time was 8:30am liao)
Me: Ya loh..
Her: U wanna take cab down a not? anyway i oso taking cab down.. if want i meet u at Tao Payoh (cos she lives @ TP)
Me: Dowan la.. i'm wif my mum.. (was saying this to myself: if i get off @ TP she cfm say i pon sch wan..)
Her: Ok loh.. den c u in sch later..
Me: K.. (tu~ tu~ we hung up)

When i reached Orchard it was already 8:45am.. *Proceeded to RP*

Met Carroll 1st.. den wait for Stacy to end her test.. i couldn't make it on time.. neither did Carroll.. there goes our UT3.. -_-"

Talked a lot of cock wif them today... had a great laugh.. somemore tok about *Shi-Jie-Mo-Ri*, *Judgement Day* & some other Jesus thing.. Holy us eh.. haha.. @ abt 2 or 3plus in the noon, we went to Wheelock there the burger king.. waited for hubby's arrival.. continue to gossip & laugh.. we split @ 4plus.. me & hubby left for Bugis.. had to get my shirt changed...

Went back to hubby's hse.. tok cock, sing song.. ate dinner.. continue to watch show.. tok a lot oso.. & his "dearly" sister bought for him CHU-CHU.. some kind of sick food but they love it so much! it's snail i think.. the type u haf to suck & suck till tat black thingy come out.. YUCKS! hubby let me haf a taste of a small bit.. I was like.. OMG~ Terrible man!! guess his sister "Liang-Xin-Fa-Zuo" (dunoe if the phrase is correct) den she bought tat stupid snail food back.. but wad's the point? hw can a packet of food costing $8 can cover all her doings?! NO WAY!

Going to knock out liao.. buey tahan.. fucking tired.. going to call hubby & disturb him den.. PloP** off to my bed.. it is calling me now.. amanda i need ur weight on me... i miss u... LoLx..

- Self Off Day -

2005-02-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

Didn't turn up for sch today.. *Monday Blues* no la.. had to get some important things done.. the result is still very faint.. i have no idea wads going on.. there is no answer to it... we are blank.. hopefully i won't need to go tru so much ordeal.. although its not a very big deal.. but hey, i'will suffer in the end part... =(

Was @ far east for the earlier ordeal.. walked around there & i showed hubby that pair of sandals i saw wif Carroll & Stacy..

His comment: (at 1st when he saw, he gave a sick face!) Eeeeee..!!
My comment: (-__-''')
His comment: u wear & let me c...
Me: (i wore & show him)
His comment: =) u wanT? hubby buy for u..
My comment: haha.. nice rite.. (i wanted the sandals.. but..BUT..BUT..) nvm la.. i dowan..
His comment: want a not.. hubby buy for u lah...
My comment: dowan la..
His comment: u dowan ah... wait walk out of this building u dun make me U-TURN n come back to e shop n buy again ah... want anot? want buy now.. if not later walk away cannot come back liao..
My comment: dowan... (i today nv bai to the "kai liew god".. save SAVE!!) hehe..

After tat went to buy clothes wif hubby @ Bugis cos nth attracted us except for that few pair of earrings.. was happy to c him after so many days.. hehe.. one day onli la.. but den this is love ma.. so there is always a space in my mind to think of him...

Went home earli today.. had dinner wif my sis & ate my mum's SICK FOOD! mui cai wif MINCED PORK! WTFffff... (-___-''')

Tmr going back to sch liao.. got test again... WTH!! nvm tmr can see Carroll & Stacy tmr too.. ^_^.. i shall end here.. may any god bless me dun so suey can... HAIxx...

Missing him silently now... he sent me a song today.. Titled: Let Me Die by Xie Ting Feng... i'm touched.. he said all the things he wanna told me is in tat song... ^_^

- SAD.DEAD -

2005-01-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling v down...
Down enuff to pluck off one of my brain's nerves to end it..
Why mus all the unhappy things happen on me..
Am i so prone to it? I
jus wan 2 lead a normal life..
I jus wan to be a happy girl wif a loving bf...
Why mus all these shit happen on me!!
I reali hate my life!
Why WHY WHY!!!
WHY MUS ALL THESE HAPPEN TO ME!!!!!
Why do others live happily?
Why am i oways struck wif disasters...
Does anyone understand me?
I've been tru so much to be 20 now, but my life is like a wreck ship..
Nobody to mend or even take care of it...
Wad did i do wrg to deserve all these SHIT..
Life is such a momentum to everyone..
Everyone cherish their lives..
Me?
I'm oways the odd wan out..
I am tearing again..
Tears kept rolling down..
Hw can i de-stress myself..
Its worst than having PMS!!
I hope i leave this world one day..
An accident or by means..
So that pple will remember me still..
Where are laughters?
They left me long ago..
I'm alone..
Wif this dead body & brain..
Dead...
I don't wish to be awaken..
I jus wanna lie in this coffin of mine alone..
Sadness accompanied me till now...
When will laughter come back?
I've no idea...
Becos my brain is dead...

- Test.. Tsk Tsk -

2005-01-25T11:56:00.000+08:00

Yawnz.. back in this boring sch again.. had my test today.. its been a long time since i last attended my last UT~ seems pretty easy. but duno i got the concept rite a not..

Duno wads wrg wif my stupid blog.. used to be able to upload many pics online.. but now, i have reduced to 3 onli.. WTF! duno wads e fucking problem.. going to make it some other day.. no time for it man.. its stressing me!!

Shall stop here.. will b blogging soon again..

Wonder where's bebe.. ZzZ i guess.. miss him lots~ =/

- Monday Blues = Pon Teng Day -

2005-01-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

o.O didn't go sch today...

Went to meet bebe in the noon.. ate alot today.. feel like a PIG! today's mood not rather good.. cos i found out something.. -__-" not about hubby doing any bad things behind my back.. but its about me.. haix.. i'm so SAD! duno why i so suey.. shall not share more on it.. gimme a space of my own!! i needa life man~!

CNY is coming and i'm down wif my luck! WTF! a big thank you to hubby for being by my side..
No mood to carry on... my life is in a mess.. feel like pouring out now.. =..(

-ended my last session wif sadness-

- Sunday Nite -

2005-01-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogging..

Went to yishun 101 there for dinner.. after tat went to ah ma hse.. haven seen tat lao eh for a long time.. "Long time no see".. spoke to my cousins.. they are so grown up now.. the noti big guy cousin of mine, ashley is in CJC! can't believe it.. his younger sis, janine is in cedar's sec 3.. still got 2 more younger gals.. but i dun tok to them so y bother.. they are not important..

Came home @ abt 8 or 9plus.. log onto the net and download songs.. something happened in irc.. started off wif a quarrel but den had a great laught afterall.. one of the funi thing tat happened~

Bonny: U all noe the kun da from (i can't rem wad band) ?
Ah Wen: ???
Melvin: orh.. that ah kun ah... y? (My hubby oways di siao pple without fail)
Bonny: yah u got his songs?
Me: ya kun si bo?
Melvin: tat wan peng kang bread wan huh?
Bonny: yah can send me his songs?
Ah Wen: i old chang kee...
Me: Lol..
Bonny: can send me his songs?

Tat asshole reali is a joke of the day man.. he dun even catch the joke.. lol.. reali had a great laugh..

Carroll didn't called me eventually.. i called her first.. cos i going to pon tmr.. gonna meet my hubby.. haven seen him since fri.. miss him alot alot~!! lucky Carroll haf someone to pei tmr.. if not i tink she oso cfm pon wan.. lol.. Stacy's off have been changed to Tues.. everything have been pushed forward..

I shall stop here... gonna rest my lazy brain.. but before tat.. going to ka jiao hubby... ^_^.. nitez all... tata..

- Let My Fingers Do The Talking -

2005-01-23T14:06:00.000+08:00

Boo..

Woke up @ 1plus today.. msg hubby den went to disturb amelia in her room.. was surprised that she didn't played my lappy.. haha.. and thanks to her, she found my box of martell marbles!! THANK U MI-LI-Pede.. was searching high & low for it.. now i can combine the rest wif the old wan..

After tat i went to brush my teeth and had my brunch~ guess wad that lao chee bye bought me? as usual, for dog eat wan! she knew i dun eat cha sao (PORK).. but she insist to get F by me.. she ask me 2 eat my lunch & amelia told me tat it was cha sao fan.. (-___-") <-- tat was how my face look like..

Me: u knew i hate pork and u still buy that bloody red pig for me!
Mum: u kept coughing, if u continue to eat more chicken u will die..
Me: YA! wad craps.. u die, i oso haven die..

Knn! wake up n face a packet of red blooded pig! shit face! enough of her.. jus cannot get myself to treat her wif love.. i rather die man~!

Didn't meet hubby since fri.. cos i was packing my room for new yr.. oh man i can't imagine i got so much rubbish! packed everything including my clothes on sat.. today i'm free~ threw many things away but got mum to donate to the poor.. it's rather new so y waste it.. help the unfortunate ma~ ^_^ although i may look v ah lian or bad, but i still pity the poor ok.. i'm not that bad after all.. muahahahaha..

My bones are cracking.. i'm merely 20 & i feel like i'm like 70! damn tired after all these packing.. lucky i'm all done.. thanks to amelia too.. she played a great role.. ^_- DARN! tmr is monday and i needa go school liao.. haix.. happy becos i can see carroll but sad cos stacy is off tmr.. wonder whether Carroll will msg me later asking if i'm going sch.. haha.. let's make a guess.. will let u guys noe if she did.. the thought of going back to RP irks me! the sight of tat green school makes me sick.. i rather go to the jungles or forest!

Okay enuff of my CRABS.. i shall let my fingers rst now.. they have talked alot.. tata~ ("(o^_^o)")

- Boring Me In My BORING SCHOOL -

2005-01-19T10:27:00.000+08:00

>.<

I'm back in sch again.. haven been coming to school these few days.. went to hubby's hse ytd.. didn't do much.. jus laughing away our time.. @ about 1plus i got a call from Carroll...

Carroll: "amanda where r u?"
Me : "i'm at mel's hse"
Carroll: "hey r u staying there e whole day?"
Me : "yah"
Carroll: "ok later i meet u after sch, cos there's an Urban & Co. warehouse sales over at boon keng"
Me : "okie.. keep in touch again"

Yah and @ about 5pm i met up wif Carroll.. went to look for Blk 101 industrial park in boon keng.. been walking circles & circles before we reached.. felt so dumb when it was so NEAR to hubby's hse.. (-___-").. many boxes, many clothes.. nth caught my eyes except a purple top.. but didn't get it.. =/ Carroll got a few that cost up to less than 10 bucks.. GREAT DEAL YEA? haha.. lucky her.. we were tossling the clothes like those ah soh.. there were so many~~!!

After tat went to quench our thirst @ the canteen over there "Broadway"... waited for Carroll's fren to finish her work den walk back to hubby's hse.. i oways tot hubby's ears were the biggest.. but i'm definitely wrong.. Carroll's fren ears were like B..I...GGGGG!! cute ah? y some pple they so cute.. Mickey Mouse human generation~ Lol...

Went back to hubby's hse to get Carroll's bag.. and off she goes.. had a great laugh wif her over at the warehouse sales.. HAHA.. was wif bebe until 11pm den went home..

Didn't get to tok to him in the nite.. he had a headache.. he slept.. and me? i was lying on the bed... thinking about many things.. felt very bottled up~ brain was tired.. he lead me to sleep.. slept for less than 3hrs.. was woken up by dad to go school... -___- yawns...

Here i am in school blogging... he's not up yet... am i missing him or i was jus bored to think of nth..? i guess that is wad love is all about.. miss his voice.. ~_~ where is he? drifting in his sweet dreams.. haix.. cant the time pass faster? its only 10:45am!!

Guess i shall stop rattling off.. will stop here.. waiting for Carroll's arrival then got pple pei me tok cock sing song liao.. not forgetting my dear Stacy gal.. she's thin man.. *Jia You* ^_^v

- Sunday :: Family Day -

2005-01-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Aloha....

Yawns~ woke up @ 1+ in the afternn today den went to IKEA with dad, mum & amelia.. went to look for new furni for our rooms.. i'm sick & tired of my room man!! i need some new stuff to keep me alive.. got a mirror and 2 coloured boxes for myself.. supposed to get a wardrobe or 2 but den couldn't make up my decision.. so i guess i'm goin to consider them later next wk.. daddy say next wk is the final decision.. LOL~ like play the millionare game..

After IKEA we went to paya lebar furni hse.. there oso got a few attracted me but den i jus cant confirm any yet.. haix.. mei x2 is going to get another big cupboard to throw all her barangs in.. i'm oso goin to throw mine in there too.. wahaha...

Went to eat at amk GIM TIAN restaurant for dinner.. cos sat mummy bday den we nv celebrate.. eat full liao den go home.. go home liao all go bian bian... -____-"

Boring day....

- Computer Day -

2005-01-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

Boo..

Today didn't go to sch.. ponteng again.. "sorry to Carroll & Stacy".. i'll be back soon... woke up @ 3 plus today..had a bath den off to meet bebe.. we went to eat @ Lavendar food court.. i had prawn mee, hubby ate kuey chup + chicken wings + a bowl of PIG parts.. dunoe wad izit call.. YUCKS!! (^(o o)^)

After eating we went to Sim Lim Square to buy some things for his precious computer.. hubby bought many things.. he bought a noise controller for the light so that when he listen to songs that have bass, it will blink.. den bought a noise filter for his broad band, a little black optical mouse and some stupid wire coil to coil up the wire inside the PC.. but turn out to be very hard to use so we didnt use it.. waste money! $25 for that stupid wire coil.. i simply love his PC man~ the light very nice.. somemore its my favourite colour.. PINK!! supposed to help out wif everything but den he can do it without me.. can't believe that a person who hate computer can make a PC to turn out so nice.. it's a compliment to him.. *Jia You* den i nv do anything loh.. jus sit there and play wif the stupid cable tie.. -___-"

Now quite late le.. so going to make a move liao.. after entering all my thoughts i will be leaving his pig sty.. HAHA!! tmr is our anniversary.. 3 yr 8 mths... dunoe going to sch anot.. if nv go.. my apologize to Stacy & Carroll.... ^_-V ~tata~

- Malaysia... Truly Asia... -

2005-01-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

-Peep- O.O

Ytd didnt go to sch.. went to malaysia.. ^_^ went there wif Hubby, Wei Liang & Ah Yuan (hubby's frenz).. we went to look for Carroll's rashes cream.. wah i can tel u ah tat fucking holiday plaza is not a place to buy cream or medicine man! 1st time go, pharmist not around! 2nd time go oso not around! CB wan! den haf to go another shop call dunoe wad "farmer pharmist".. aiyah duno wad la.. cant remember the name.. and i finally found it! knn~ i will nv go there and buy any medicine man! everytime not around.. dun work beta..

After tat we went to eat at "Da Ma Hua Yuan".. we had seafood for dinner.. splendid dinner while resting our wobbly legs.. den again, bought stuff tat are not allowed in S'pore.. VCDs, PC games, Bubble gums.. wahahaha.. love the thrill man.. ^_^ but cannot oways lidat la huh.. (*angelic smile*) Hmmm, not forgetting... -whispers: Stacy wans "Meet The FUCKers"..- so are we going to hiong in that VCD the next trip? o.O oOOHhh...

Okay enuff of Malaysia.. get back to school.. had a great laugh wif Carroll & Stacy over somethings.. -SHHHhhh- =X ya not forgetting, gotta update them wif VCDs.. will be bringing more for u all to c ok.. i guess i gotta stop now.. it's my 6th ppt.. boring...

-plop back to class- yAwnzzZZ....

A New Year.. A New Beginning

2005-01-10T02:00:00.000+08:00

Hi all..

Yawns.. i've been making this stupid blog desgine since 7pm until now.. WTF! so long leh.. i cant seem to get the bloody codes right! haix.. dun study lah! if not i sure know the basic wans...

So wads my new year resolutions?

1. Quit school.
2. Able to get my mum working out something wif hubby.
3. Hope everything will go smoothly for hubby.
4. Get more wishes.
5. Be a happy ger.
6. World peace! NO MORE DISASTERS PLEASE!
7. Hope to get more sleep.

Wonder what you all think of my new blog.. comments are welcome in my others.. there is a tag board there.. i've added a few of you to my blog.. pls update mine too..

Guess i won't be going to school tmr.. non of my close frenz are going.. will be going malaysia wif hubby & frenz.. Hopefully nth will happen to bebe like the previous time.. he shd noe wad i'm toking abt.. hehe..

Okay i shall stop here.. gonna disturb bebe before i slp.. hehe... ^_^ nitez...